Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Blessed


Wow! 2008 is almost over...and in alot of ways I am glad. I never dreamed that this year would be so hard. But losing my best friend to cancer has awakened me in so many ways..and I hope I never forget to live each day to the fullest.
As for the family: Mekhi started Kindergarten at our church and is LOVING it! He is one of the top readers in his class and his teacher says he's always for the underdog..helping those around him. He has become very creative, give him some tape and a box and he's content for hours! I feel God leading my heart towards homeschooling him next year, so say some prayers for us. I am so excited. We are in the process of creating him and Amara an awesome classroom in our home.
Amara: Continues to be a busy little bee, she dosen't talk a whole lot because she's too busy singing ALL the time! Too cute! She loves her big brother and they continue to play so well together!
Aric: Is busy teaching 11th grade Psychology(a great fit for him) and coaching middle school basketball. He finished his Masters from Liberty University this summer in Educational Administration. He plans to persue a specialist degree this year in cirriculum. At this point he plans to stay in the classroom...since that allows him to be home with us more often.
Me: I am busy being a mom. I work a few hours a week at our church coffee shop and have gotten involved in choir. I got to sing the finale "Joy to the World" at our Christmas musical..it's really been a joy to sing again.
Shabria & Ro: Moved out in October and live at "My Sisters Place" an organization affiliated w/our church where she can get more help that she needs...we still see her every week at church.
Latoya: Came from Lake Wales this summer to live w/us to persue a massage therapy certification...she is doing great. She is involved at our church and gives great massages:)

May all our family and friends be blessed this New Year...as Kristi's widowed husband says so well..."Love Hard"
Kara

Friday, December 5, 2008

Imagination


Imagination is more important than knowledge. For while knowledge defines all we currently know and understand, imagination points to all we might yet discover and create.
Albert Einstein

Monday, November 10, 2008

Great Friend


Okay, I was at Hobby Lobby today..and walked past a picture frame that said...Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget...

Instantly I thought of Kristi and it was like she had died all over again..it took all I had to push Amara out of there and not break down..(and of coarse I bought the frame)..who cares about a budget in moments like these. So I managed to get home and write this:


Today is hard. They say grief comes in waves but sometimes I wish it would be one gigantic tsunami and then subside forever. But no.... it comes in waves, waves that will always crash in on my soul at inconvenient, unannounced times.

Today I am wondering why? Why did my best friend in the world...the best friend I have ever known...have to die? Die at 28 years old and leave a beautiful blue eyed baby girl behind.

I feel like in the instant she died, a piece of my heart was ripped out of my chest....I keep thinking it will grow back...or maybe it's just lost...but what if I never find it?

But I know good and well that piece is gone...gone with Kristi, and it's rightfully hers.

Thank God he created the place of no sorrow and there she is smiling, laughing that laugh of hers at the feet of Jesus.

Thank God I know deep down, down beneath my waves of grief...I will have my whole heart back one day...one day when I'm sitting there smiling and laughing that laugh of mine...all together at the feet of Jesus.


Sunday, November 9, 2008

You Amaze Me


I think this picture captures the spirit of Mekhi. His daddy did such a great job taking this photo.

I thank God for Mekhi. I never knew being a mom could be such an amazing adventure. Mekhi is not perfect by any means...but his compassionate heart is very evident...

evident in the way he loves and looks after his sister

evident in the way he loves to give hugs and kisses

evident in the way he can cry for joy when someone gets a new
house on Extreme Home Makeover or when his teacher tells a moving Bible story.

I thank God for Mekhi...may God continue to guide us on this journey of parenthood!

Static Electricity


I LOOOOve this picture! Amara...in her element...on the trampoline. Loving life.

Moments like this are irreplaceable.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

A Fall Day


What a beautiful Fall day here in Georgia. I still can't believe we can look out our back windows and see a forest full of trees. The colors amaze me. Being raised in Florida, I didnt get to see much foliage but my heart vaguely remembers the few autumn days I spent in my birthplace:Michigan.
I can see my dad vividly throwing us in the big leaf piles. Oh, how I would love to just step back in time for a few minutes and see my dad's face again, feel his arms thrust me up in the air...and just laugh together again in the cool, crisp air.
I know I won't get to see Daddy this Fall or anymore to come...but I will keep his memory alive and as soon as our leaves fall...I will see his heir smile and laugh as I throw them up into a big pile of freshly fallen leaves.
Missing Dad, but I know I will see him again.....Kara